MEET GANDHI- THE FATHER OF OUR NATION

Its Independence Day, 60 years, calls in for a celebration. I felt, looking at the media, our commercial ventures made the Independence Day lose its tactile sensitivity. It is great to see many different ads coming out; I feel, its India as a country have our own tenet when it comes to celebrating any occasion.

Today morning, a friend of mine was writing an article on India and she seemed to be very passionate about it. She wanted to underscore the fact, the beauty of India and I am sure it will be a good reading. I felt, “Chalo, even I shall share few of my adventures associated with Indian Independence with the same verve as she is”.

Last year, some time in July, I selected few places of my own volition. First stop was Ahemadabad. There was a reason to meet one of my good friends, Rachita, who was working out there. Well, first signs of her stay at Gujarat weren’t encouraging. She was accompanied by her mother, but they both didn’t seem to enjoy the visage of that particular environment. In a way, it is tough on us to be leaving our comfort zone (home) to some other place. I guess, at times one shall be wallowed with circumstances when there aren’t many choices given.

I reached the place and first thing I did was to book a hotel room for myself. The weather was not dry and was cloudy. It was that time of the season where monsoon was expected any moment. I never set my heart on myself while traveling, I keep reminding that I have got too much wanderlust at times and hence I allow my mind to control most of the situations. I did meet Rachita and her mom. In a way, they were happy to see me being there when there aren’t familiar faces around. They were staying at company’s guest house until she found herself a house to stay.

THE DRAWING ROOM OF THE GUEST HOUSE

First day was spent in me spending most of my time with them. Rachita wasn’t feeling well for some days. I and her mom went out in search of a house. We did meet quite a few agents and lots of houses. We weren’t quite happy with what we saw. In a way getting a house which aunt and Rachita wanted seemed very tenuous, but never did they or even I lose any hope.

On my way back, next to my hotel, there was a theater. I am fond of movies and I just went in to watch “Omkara”. I paid 20 bucks for this and got a good deal with the seating as well. I did realize the entertainment taxes out here in Bangalore were too much. I guess that goes the same ways with any inter state movies.

Day 2: Wanted to visit places. I was sure this place was close. Took the rickshaw and out I went.

Sabramati Ashram it was………

To be frank, I was always fascinated with the way, Gandhi worked out his ways. Be it, via Ben Kingseley in the movie ‘Gandhi’ or his experiments with truth, he some how epitomized a man who is not just known for his tonsure.

Previously, I knew Gandhi only through movies and literature. As I walked into this tract of infinite wisdom, I was astonished to see and hear many facts about his life.

The ambience was refreshing and the first thing I did was to enter the museum, which had many of his writings along with his photographs.

One by one as it flickered, I was in alacrity to know the reason for him being transcendent and set an example of being truculent by imbibing the concept of ahimsa.

Many of the portraits explained the transports of people and Gandhi in particular for a common purpose. Being Independent; free of being held in thrall by the British.

ONE OF THE SET OF PHOTOGRAPHS BEING DISPLAYED AT THE MUSEUM

By looking at the photographs and the events depicted, I was being vicarious with the events.
The vision of Gandhi was clear, to turn the barren administration into a verdant.
His veneer appearance spoke more than his abstinence practices. He had principles and he followed it vehemently. Few would argue or doubt his principles, but, he had a vision and a dream, he sensed to negate the ever growing vex among his fellow countrymen, ahimsa was the way to go. He never veered with his principles even at the time of adversity. It spoke volumes of a man, who stood by what he thought was veracious.

It was time, to give back the voyeur British Government to stop impaling Indians (as we proudly say it) with their illogical, adamant and more importantly egoistic practices at times.

Like, we say, British did a lot of things which were responsible for the uproar. Spreading English education by Sir William Bentick and encouraging Indians to take part in civil services were precedent for self awakening for souls.

It was at times, the vitriolic and virulent attitude of certain officers made us realize, it was high time we needed our land to be ruled by our leaders, not aliens.

I don’t want to go back into history, but would like to share the vignette I have or rather I saw out there at ashram.

It was his sheer dedication and determination that saw British wane out eventually.

Well, Gandhi didn’t become a leader, he was made to lead. Not only he led because people had faith in him, he had faith in himself and his abilities to take on the unbridled opposition.

However, there were people who were in opposition to what he believed in. But, instead of blaming each other, we must acknowledge the best of all the worlds, because, everyone had a common goal.

A nation boasting people who are religious, moral, unsavory, fearless, timorous etc

There are possibilities of conflicts of principles and interests. But in this case, it was only principles because the interest was same. All had a common interest.

At last, the Gandhian principles prevailed and he turned out to be the main catalyst for our freedom. So he was our Father of the Nation. If Bose would have survived and got us the freedom through his principles, he would have been bestowed with the above title.

Ultimately, it is all about being survival of the fittest, Gandhi just proved, he need not be physically fit, his taut principles and the tensile strength of it were indeed very fit.

Even now, his idealisms, doesn’t seem to be uncouth, it’s just that we need courage to follow it. One has to be tendentious and then follow it up. Gandhi’s idealisms were accepted at that time, because, we were short of ideas and we just accepted it because it worked for us. So in theory, situation is very different now. We need to use these idealisms to fight within rather than people.

Also, people wanted and waited to hear at that time, and it isn’t same, although people want to hear, but, do they have time to wait?

And by the time, I reached the end of portrait section, I did realize, being independent doesn’t mean staying away or not being dependent on others, Independent means, unclogging our self with the ailments we carry through out the day. So freedom in actual sense means to free our self from the prison of our thoughts which inhibits our movements. This could bring a degree of tempestuous situations at times within us, but it is better to tarry decisions than to end up being tawdry.

Sometimes, we need to carry the necessary unguent to the sore mental muscles. That comes with wisdom. Gandhi, in his veracity expressed the need to read literature and to be aware of the world that takes us a step closer to being independent.

If, independent means to be not being dependent, then wisdom helps us to be aware of situations and hence less dependent on others. Serve the food you like, buffet is ready.

But, it is better to enjoy the best of all worlds at our disposal than criticize being drawn to comparison. Although, if comparison is what that brings in the money for others, let it be at professional life than taking it to our personal lives.

Towards the end of the portrait section, a portrait of his funeral is displayed. Nearly three lakh people gathered on that day.

THE NEWSPAPERS ALL OVER THE WORLD COVERING GANDHI'S DEATH

THE DEATH BED

THE FINAL RITES

He wore the robe of verisimilitude. His deeds are indeed highly venerable from all places across the world.

After a while, I visited his home, Hriday Kunj. A familiar sight of a Gandhian sat there. I asked him about the history of this place, he explained in a detailed manner. He did mix his Hindi with Gujarati; I was being unimpeachable and didn’t show any signs of not understanding when he spoke in Gujarati. But I could sense, what it meant.

HRIDAY KUNJ

I entered the place, it was refreshing. One could forget all the venial thoughts. Except for his room, all other rooms were accessible. Although, one could get a glance of how his room looked like.

THE MAIN DOOR OF THE HOUSE

KASTURBA GANDHI'S ROOM ENTRANCE

GANDHI"S ROOM ENTRANCE

THE PLACE WHERE GANDHI SPENT MOST OF HIS TIME- HIS ROOM- PHOTO TAKEN FROM LITTLE OPENING

And after this, I could see the sad sight of River Sabramati. It was polluted and dry. Thankfully, Government is restoring the river through one of its projects.

Forecast was rain showers on that day, but even the weather gods couldn’t vitiate my visit to this ashram.

At the end of the day, I could summarize his principles in this way. V for Verity and not Vendetta.

In a way, whenever I behave in a waggish manner, never I realized what went before me. Did people of my age at that time enjoyed similar privileges?

The point is its not comparing our lives with that of our ancestors. It is all about learning and being progressive. Like we progressed from monkeys to humans, our thoughts must progress. It is all about creating better positions for the coming generations rather than concentrating on trifling issues.

I know our tyranny might not help us in progressing. But doesn’t the situation arise once again what our ancestors faced.

It is true, history repeats. And it is also true, one must learn from our history.

Sometimes we do dream to have many things. It is all about transmuting our dreams into actualities. The challenges faced in realizing our dreams are what we call the driving forces of Life. One could be a hero like Gandhi, Bose etc bowled by their talisman qualities.

The way our mind progresses, the problems would have reached another level as well. As proportionately, we are all in the same league as our ancestors were.

In a way, it is tantamount with the lives we live with the ways our forefathers lived. I know it has changed a lot. But, change is the only constant thing in this world.

It is not just to remember them on particular days being allotted as National Holidays.

The way they thought about us being in good positions, it would be better if we do the same by thinking of our country’s future. Oh yes, there would be a Gandhi, Bose coming out again. It is likely to be a combination of many qualities than those reminiscent of Gandhi alone or in particular any other person alone.

I managed to catch the rickshaw and headed towards the hotel. I indeed realized every idea works as long as it works and continues to work if it had worked.

I Saw Who??

Incensed by the world around me, I keep wondering as to how things can be so different, I see people living their lives in the most logical way possible and few others who expect things to happen, busy with their incantation. It’s ingrained in my mind, I meet people who are either ingenuous or people who are ingrate. I like being an inquisitor and more sort of an interloper who invades into many facets of life. I heard, thinking about oneself, is not being selfish, and, for most parts of my life, I saw this aspect being mastered only by certain people whose ideals were insuperable and insurmountable. Their interminable willpower and the ability to deal with inimical, iniquitous people and environment is something I kept wondering whether it is innate or has it been cultivated by wisdom. This is a group of intelligentsia, where academic qualification doesn’t have much say.

They lead an idyllic life, minus all the impetuous situations. They do not implore for a living and for that matter to be happy, they instead seek out or rather construct a pathway to their intellectual success. They may be impecunious, but they do not rely much on money, although they do realize, money is important, but it isn’t that important. They are impregnable to the greed of wealth in the form of money; they prefer the wealth which is indissoluble unlike money which goes through a series of incursion at times.

I was getting curious to meet any one of them who possess such remarkable skills that are incontrovertible. I was being an itinerant in the search of this spiritual Guru from whom I could imbibe certain skills.

I had to give up many things in search of this Guru, I was not sure, but I wanted to learn. So after reluctance I was inveigled in to this spiritual journey. I was inured to my house, family and other things which were ineluctable since childhood. I did leave and few miles I started walking. After few days, I was out of my indigenous place.

Few friends did drop by, to change my decision which according to them didn’t make any sense at this point of time in my life. By this time, I was imbued with the similar talks and I was beginning to immure my purpose by their advice so to say. To be frank, I was happy to find some friends who wanted me to come back, mainly they didn’t want me to go out of my comfort zone. Well, one friend just came near me and told “Forget the imbroglio out here, instead of this imposture, you go and discover yourself, I hope this journey shall incapacitate all the unnecessary bugs on your mind. You have taken a bold step, make sure you are not being imprudent on this journey and at the same time you incite with all the wonderful things around you. Things can be inclement at times, but that will only help you strengthen your will. Initially the results of your efforts will be imperceptible, but prolonging your will shall make your mind inundated with thoughts that will come in handy through out your journey”.

Won’t I be termed as a hermit if I am not with my friends? And, is it possible to retain my individuality with the inveterate group of people I end up meeting each day?

Life at times can be intractable to those who are invidious with the things and people around them. Hence they lose a chance to appreciate the other side of the coin of life. Accompanying such kind of people at times can be irksome. Some of the quibbles they have are inane to the nth order. True, it is incommodious to include them in our lives, but in no way we have rights to be invective and indict them with hatred ness. Their qualities are not irremediable and neither we are here to find a remedy for others. We are here to find remedy for our inborn illness, and no physicians or chemists have a solution for this. It is us and you for your life. People not understanding this, might lead a life which is insubstantial but I look at it this way; From other’s failures one must learn and hence if the other person enjoys committing mistakes one must learn not to make instead of subjecting ourselves to insubordination.

First and foremost we must learn to agree to disagree many aspects of life and mainly people’s behavior. People’s behaviors are irrevocable just like ours. By knowing ourselves, one can avoid being irreverent to the life we are given to lead. Through self awareness one can iridescent the qualities which will ingratiate with the people who are struggling to know themselves. Majority of the opinions are based on the actions taken by us in a similar situation. We appreciate it, if it goes on par with our thinking, we tend to inveigh the actions if we do not think in a similar way or it becomes an innovation if we do not have any idea about the actions. So basically most of us do not have any inkling as to what is happening in one’s life. One must be insightful and inter the trivial things that happen around us. One must never interdict the process of “practical intellectual learning”.

PIL, as I would describe. One that happens each moment, it must be realized. PIL has an inordinate fondness of helping us, training us to make our lives better, but very few people realize this and others behave as though they are insensate for PIL. Every one have their own defined problems, it’s mundane. However it is one’s choices that determine the outcome. Some are time precision and others are inopportune. To practice PIL, one need not be an ascetic. One can choose to be intermittent. To be present and mingle with the people and at the same time be separated from the world through sheer will power. One need not meditate on the snowy mountains to attain intellectual knowledge, one can learn only by being present in this world surrounded by people. This learning to start with is not inscrutable and with keen dedication we can get rid of certain infirmity which inhibits our intellectual growth.

By being more self aware, one can see the distinctions with people around us and it makes accept the indignation at times. Self awareness brings indissoluble changes and mostly for the better. One can be inebriated with many thoughts that are not useful and hence we end up being branded as inept. Interesting things do happen, one likes to be infantile in decision making others can infract. Very few decisions can be indubitable and sadly even they aren’t spared these days due to difference in opinion that voices out from each corner in this world. So with many people around, true learning happens when one allows others to impale our body with their thoughts which fights with our ideals in order to indenture to alien thoughts. This fight between the ideals of self with that of all the people is what we call the impetus of life.

It is a war, compromise, friendship and one encounters many personalities during this war. Impertinent, impetuous, imperious, impiety, impolitic, incendiary, incontinent, insidious, insolvent, insouciant, insurgent are some of the qualities that impute to an infernal life. However, on the flip side, there are people who incrust rate themselves with fortitude. More often than not, the battle would be with the former and hence the outcome can be at times indomitable and inexorable. So with many people around, we can very well accept the fact that everyone cannot be perfect and carry out things in a manner of inerrancy.

All human beings are capable of error, so why being fussy in living in this world. So all we need to do is, train ourselves to lift the incubus hovering around us and incur things that aids to intellectual growth. In a way, we indite our literature of life and all we must ensure, the pages of our literature to be indelible by people who lead an incorporeal life. By knowing ourselves we can detach the incognito bug by our personal identity so that it can indemnify some aspects moving forward. So when people can live the life impugning, making incisive remarks about others, why can’t you live quite the opposite way?

The challenge is to avoid immolating our lives to the circumstances instead fight the imbecility within us and not wait till the realization time is imminent. Instead of leading a life filled with a felling of ignominy, we have a chance to live quite the opposite manner which is free from impunity as a result of our actions. We must not allow circumstances to incarcerate us and reduce to a state of impuissance.

What must I cultivate in order to strengthen my PIL?

Be an incumbent in your mental office. Keep accurate records of all the things that you do. Never give a chance to incriminate your downfall on others, even if you do, do not prolong it or rather do not repeat it. We do make mistakes and go off track in our impromptu living style. Allow your mind to accept the impropriety in many facets of life since not all things are made to perfection. A human life is inalienable to many things; one must not try to change it for self satisfactory. Some remarks are imponderable; hence do not bother to weigh the full import of the content. It doesn’t have it in any case. View your life like a movie and the circumstances as adventures. Keep your options open so that you don’t reach a stage of impasse, wherein there is no escape. Cultivate the will power so that it is impalpable to the various temptations thrown around. Be importunate to certain things all by yourself in order to realize the capacity and to an extent to gauge one’s tolerance limits. Appreciate things which you have and never importune for things in a greedy way; there are few things which go our way and all other things in our favor are highly implausible.

Instead of imprecating others for being a catalyst in your downfall and treating with indignity, try not to be severe. There are things which are meant to happen in a certain way. The beauty of life and the mystery associated with it is in the interpretation of events that happen in a certain way. Instead of blaming situations and passing impious remarks about others, one must cultivate the habit of decoding the event language and hence try to become better interpreters of life. So you must be able to defend yourself against direct accusations in the same spirit as the innuendos on one’s character. Certain things are ruled by one’s thoughts and others from different people’s thoughts. We must reduce the interregnum between these two reigns that controls our mind and its subsequent actions. And one must not show insolent towards the turn of events; one must learn from it rather than get ruined. Mind and body must be nourished with positive elements so that they are stress free and in turn reduce the internecine nature of body and mind when combined during stress.

There is reward and punishment for every deed in this life itself, so you must be responsible for your actions. When great people die early, it is not injustice, it is just that, we don’t deserve them or they go away so that we can learn something from it. When a certain section of greats face adversity, it is a lesson to be learnt in the way they overcome it, rather than cursing it or feeling sorry about it. Things happening beyond your control are irreproachable and irreparable at times. Certain people’s deeds are irrepressible along with their curiosity, so we do encounter situations which are irreconcilable, but such things or course of events must be irrefutable rather than us reacting in an irate manner.

An iota of common sense and intellectual knowledge will take us no where near our destiny. We must be leaders of our destiny and leaders should never appear irresolute when decisions are made. And Remember …………………”

Its 11 am, Oh man, why did I sleep so much???

Took my bath and while driving, I just got reminded of the events that was very different. Very few times my heart and mind weren’t in a state of insurrection. They concurred to many things which were previously intangible. Maybe they did, I was surprised. In the interim let me finish my work today and think about interpreting my dream later in the day when I get back. At least, I am not impenitent for them to join hands; it will be for something better. It wouldn’t be improvident. Just when I was thinking more on this, I reached my customer’s place. Well, to be frank, I didn’t’ know as to why I am writing this, all I can say, there is a hidden purpose and eventually I did get to know. I could see the word-ly power of me in I.

The Departed Angel

Well, I somehow got reminded of an instance that happened few years back. Well, I was artful with things I liked and this was a special feeling, the one which wasn’t Déjà vu.

I used to commute in public transport, distance and many friends were there, so journey was never short of an adventure each day that passed by during the 2 years of pre-university.

Since, there were many people who had to take the same bus at the 11^th hour; we had a line of people waiting to get in, so that there isn’t any stampede. I got fascinated by a girl, a fair one, and that’s it. It was her face, which expressed many moods of hers, while she continued talking to her fellow mates.

OMG, but, didn’t give much thought on that. Now, the situation made me to see her more often since I was few places behind and her face was quite visible while we were getting onto the bus. This happened for one week, and each day, she just made me go crazy with her looks. Two weeks, without notice, my heart was penchant towards the familiar face of the fortnight.

It wasn’t a situation wherein she appeared everywhere, but her actual presence on the bus stop and on the bus, triggered a bug inside me, known as “The Crush”. Previously, I would have liked a girl or a woman, but never before I thought so much about it.

Feelings did creep in, but it would cease as soon as she wasn’t visible. Well, talk about fantasy and an angel coming to your life, this was nothing short of it. The best thing about her was the face and the hair. Her smile and only once I did see her crying, or at least with moist eyes.

The spy inside me wanted to know more about her. And at the same time, I didn’t want to be a pedantic in terms of tricks or techniques of getting to know her. I am never comfortable with such things. Sometimes or rather, most of the times, I do let situation do the talking, if not my mouth.

I believe having good intentions about the other person, good will happen since I didn’t have any malicious intentions. It was pure appreciation of a beauty which ignited a soft affectionate corner in me which till date wasn’t discovered. In a way, she would be a reason as to what made me think about lot of things in me.

Previously, I would hate to have persistently thought about a girl. I was recalcitrant in this regard. Preferred, being a recluse in such issues. Rather being weltered by such recurring thoughts.

In a way, I wanted to get rid of the insularity with respect to such feelings.
Initially, my mind was intransigent with my heart. My heart wanted to have a very comfortable zone, and that was to think about her and feel good about it. My mind was focused more on other things like studies, playing cricket and just the normal routine I had at that time.

Ok, my heart won the battle, not like I would regret. But the feeling inside me at that time was good.

Each day, there were few people in between me and her in the bus queue. That’s ok; I didn’t feel like hurrying up things. I just loved the fact of seeing her face and that’s about it. Everything else about her didn’t matter. I didn’t force myself to look into her, but situations made me or rather she used to be visible from where I was.

On the day of my practical exams, I joined the queue. OMG, she is standing in front of me. Black sweat shirt that covered her and blue denims to the compliment the upper attire. Never before in weeks, had I seen her that close.

From the conversation she was having, got to know she was in final year of her bachelor’s degree at Jain College. (B.Com). “Elder to me, 3 years??” my mind thought.
“How does it matter, its not like you want to be friends with her, you like her face and that’s it, why you thinking so much, Just relish the moment that you are close to her and more importantly to her face”, my heart spoke.

We both got into the bus, and believe it or not, she was right in front of me. I had a pencil and I was marking few pages on my book. Out Came a sheet of paper and for the first time, I started scribbling something on the bus. I still have it with me.

This is what I wrote:

Slow and steady along the road,

A bus moved carrying some load.

There was an angel sitting in the front seat,

My heart woke up, to rejoice the visual treat.

As the bus moved from one place to another place;

My heart gathered to race with some pace,

Her lovely smile made me mad,

Seeing her cry, I was sad.

Her rosy lips and silky hair,

Better was the face, clear and fair.

Her hypno eyes and catchy dimple;

Made others girls around her look very simple.

She will be remembered by me time to time,

Thought my heart, she would be mine.

Her stop was about to come, she prepared to get down,

My mind told the heart not to bog down.

At last, the stop came finally,

Which my heart thought would never come initially,

All these days, couldn’t muster the courage to talk,

All I did was to see her walk.

Little, did I realize, I had just managed to write a poem which rhymed. I was fascinated by rhythmic poems and in a way, my heart managed to disabuse my mind, which had a different mindset altogether before seeing this Angel.

It’s good to always listening to one’s heart. It speaks the truth and all it does is; it pinches, whenever we want to get out of our comfort zone. Heart just cannot listen to any sort of dirge playing.

At the same time, one must not allow our minds to get into a torpor state by listening to our heart. One must concur, and nurture our heart in such a way that, in adversity, heart must help us remember the good things we did instead of making us feel bad and miserable about the situation. It must make us feel comfortable in the times of agony and pain.

Listen to the inner voice; it comes in handy while shaping our destiny.

And in a way, she did trigger me and now when I look back, those few weeks were very important and crucial in my life. Talking about one’s feelings, well, she did make me shout about it if not talk about it.

After that day, I saw her once more. An Angel came and departed.

ONE RUN AT HYDERABAD

During sometime in October, last year, all my cousins decided we would start
running for the sake of fitness. Since, Mahesh, my elder cousin is interested in such things, he came up with the idea of running at Hyderabad Marathon.
With Nannu (another cousin) around, he can make things happen. He
convinced all the boys and there we are: Mission Hyderabad.

During the build up, I was told we all were running 21 km i.e. half marathon. I was telling them, "It's not an easy task, you guys must be joking."

But somehow all these guys seemed to be thinking, running a half marathon was easy. As usual, we did have our opinions pouring in and at last the decision was made. "We are running half- marathon".
Are we?

It was decided that we would have a sight seeing day prior to the marathon. Since, this was my first visit to Hyderabad; I was looking forward to the trip.

Along with the excitement, some butterflies also started creeping in when I thought about completing half marathon. To be honest, I have never run that long continuously and even the distance looked intimidating, but not impossible.

Since I used to run, I did have a measure of how long the distance would be.
Hence the mental passport was ready and all I needed was the visa of my body.
My physical condition weren't up to the standards which were required to run a marathon. Max, one month prior to the event, I would have run 10 to 15 km at one go.

The question was "maintaining the intensity." And also, during the period prior to the marathon, I was also surprised to see my cousins taking things lightly when it came to the running issue. I kept stressing the necessity of being in shape and more importantly mentally tough.

To be on the safer side, I wanted to test my fitness condition. I started focusing on cardios at gym. Just kept cycling for 10 km and thread mill for another 5 km. This routine I followed ruthlessly for 2 weeks. 3 days before the marathon, I decided to ease out and just did the usual routine. So I wasn't totally ready physically, also considering the effects of double ankle sprain on my right leg which happened in 2002, things weren't going to be easy. But it was a challenge, which I took it up, in order to see, whether I can or whether I will?

Our running T-shirts arrived, surprisingly, T-shirt clearly mentioned 10 km run. I asked Nannu and he told me the stock for half marathon was not available.

Ok, the day came finally. 24th of November, 2006. Myself, Ravi (Dali), Nannu, Mahesh, Sharath, Manju, Sandhya, Radhika (Trinca) and of course my cutie pie Namratha.

This was the gang of Bangalore, all set to conquer the blues of Hyderabad.

We had booked AC train to and fro. We reached on the morning of 25th and after some time, did find some place to rest. The plan was to have Biryani after the marathon since we would enjoy it much better and it was advisable to keep ourselves a low key when it came to eating that day.

We had booked Toyota Qualis for commuting. Entire day was spent in discussing the strategies for cracking the marathon. Manju, Sharath, Dali and Nannu had different ideas to give although it was little funny compared to my serious ideas.

First stop: Charminar. Even though it is not being maintained well, it is a beautiful piece of architecture.



And then to the Birla Mandir.



Later we went to Golconda fort. It was amazing, and evening was perfect time to be at that place. That day, I was wearing my Superman T-shirt and did feel though I had lots of energy. At the same time, I wanted this energy to last for the marathon which was in a few hours time.

The laser show with Amitabh being the Sutradhar was just the perfect way to know about the history of Golconda and other princely tit bits which have made this place a treat to visit.

By this time adrenaline was pumping and we were ready.

Dinner was more of fruits and salads although others did try their hand at Biryani and other heavy stuff, I was happy with my light meal, keeping the race in mind.

The interiors at the restaurant were simply breath taking, and for some time I wondered "whether it is a restaurant or some sort of temple?"

Off we went to bed. We were supposed to reach the venue at 7 in the morning for the half- marathon to start. I woke up at 5 am, got ready. So everyone was set for one titanic battle of our bodies and minds. Akshay Kumar and the oomph Sameera Reddy were the people who would be flagging the 10 km race.


We reached the venue. Within minutes, I saw people running past us. I was ready to go just when all my cousins pulled me back. They started laughing. I didn't understand and few seconds later, I got to know, we had come to participate the 10 km. Dali said "Now he is gonna say, I knew from start that this was a 10 km run". Even Manju said the same. Mahesh apologized saying, we are running 10 km not half- marathon. I was shell shocked, and all I did next moment, to run with those who were running the half-marathon.

I didn't carry my phone neither did I have any money. All I had at that moment was vengeance. I just wanted to show all my cousins that "I can run 21 km."

As I was alone on this mission, a lot of things were running inside me. After running for a km, I realized "Rajan, I have come here to run 21km and prove myself that I can run. I have nothing to prove others; it's a test of my will power and my stamina. I have come here to run 21 km and I am gonna do it for myself and for my special friend".

Indeed, a week before this event, my friend refused to pick up my call. A message appeared as a reply. "Nothing's wrong with my phone. I don't feel like talking to anyone. Please don't call or even reply to this message till I call you". Ok, this wasn't the first time, but I didn't get a chance to know as to why. Anyways, I had to accept the situation and move on with it. Sometimes, it hurts mentally, but one can't help it. Time is the only comforter and patience is the key till the other person recovers from this sudden disappearance.


I knew for the fact, my friend was going through a bad phase and sad part was; now I was forced to be unavailable for my friend. Whose fault is it anyway?

Hence this thing did occupy my mind while running and somewhere my triumph would help my friend, get enough confidence to deal with the problems.

Coming back, after a km, I said, "I am running this for myself, my mom and to my special friend". Suddenly, I was able to see a different picture all around me. There was clarity in whatever I was thinking and the focus was entirely on the roads of Hyderabad.

Charminar was 5 km away from the starting line, and it looked different from last afternoon when the streets were busy and it didn't look like the place where I and Trinca bought bangles for other cousins.(Females of course)

Next to Charminar was the mosque which we couldn't visit the day before due to time constraints. Recently, this mosque was in the news for wrong reasons. It was the victim of a bomb, which blasted while people were offering prayers.

Coming back, Physically, I was still in good shape and it was good to see people cheering and encouraging the running. Glucose, mosambi, water, they were plenty of them taking care and making sure we didn't get dehydrated.

Hospitality was great and the organizers made sure we didn't have to bother except for running. Half- marathon was also a good choice especially when one has to introspect himself with rest of the world. I did get to think over a lot of things and especially where I was heading in my life.

I like analogies and to me it makes sense. My running was a bit similar like the way I was living. It is a big challenge to keep pushing all the time. People are there and nature is there to help us, but the common trait is the attitude. If one has to run the marathon of life, short term and long term goals must be thought of and taken care of. For me, satisfaction of finishing the 21 km run was very important. At the same time, I didn't put extra strain on my ankles and all I did was to enjoy each km.

After 14 km, I did join the rest of the gang who were participating in the 10 km run. It was crowded and in a way, I started to lose my momentum. Again, I thought, "When things are fine, everything seems to be fine, when there is too much noise and confusion around, one must fight to retain composure and this fight is solely internal".

I was losing momentum very quickly because there were thousand's of them, some people were just playing around, some were walking, some were making fun, it just reached a point, I thought I shall give up, because the race was physically too demanding considering many people around me and also, I started to tire down because of less food intake. "It reached a stage, last 6 km, legs totally exhausted and momentum is not the same which I had for previous 15 km. Even Sun started blazing around."

Biryani was tempting, and I wanted to enjoy my meal after the run.

I didn't want to stop at that moment and be a loser. I knew I was trying my best, but I was not going to settle anything less than 21 km. That was it. I spoke to my stomach "Look, there's a good chance that you are going to get brilliant Hyderabadi Biryani( Veg), don't mess it up, just co-operate with me and I promise I am gonna fill you up big time". Trust me, these were the exact words I thought and deal was struck.

Then it was mind over matter. No amount of physical strength could have carried me further. Not that I was fainting, its just that I had lost my physical momentum but I didn't feel any sort of uneasiness of higher amplitude.

"No pain, No gain" is something, which I always recite and it did come to good use. Last few km was a test of my character, commitment and will power. I did meet Nannu and Manju in that marathon rush and they were quite relieved to see me and also in a good condition.

We parted ways, since I had to take a different route to complete. Trust me, last 3 km; I started regaining my lost physical strength. My will power out powered the unwillingness of my body to finish.

At last, I did finish. The relief and more importantly the satisfaction was something I can't quite describe in words. It's a feeling. I don't know how Hillary and Norgay felt when they reached the top of Mt. Everest. All I can say is, my feelings were similar to theirs and it's just that it was in much bigger scale for them than for what I achieved.

I would rate myself a winner because, I set myself to achieve something when I left Bangalore and I did it. After crossing the line, my pulse was measured and they noted my name. They gave me a certificate for completing the 21 km run.

I know I didn't win the race, but I won the support of my mind and body and this event also made my mind and body to understand each other in a better way and appreciate each other's contribution.

I met my cousins. All were really happy for me. Mahesh told me "It's good that you did what you wanted". Manju and Dali told "It inspired them". Nannu was really proud that I didn't get stuck with them and crib instead I went and finished 21 km.

I like running because it's a challenge. If you run hard, there's the pain - and you've got to work your way through the pain. You know, lately it seems all you hear is? Don't overdo it' and? Don't push yourself.' Well, I think that's a lot of bull. If you push the human body, it will respond."


And by the little experience of running, I can relate a lot of similar things with respect to life. This is something I would like to share.

A quote below by- George S. Patton, U.S. Army General

"Now if you are going to win any battle you have to do one thing. You have to make the mind run the body. Never let the body tell the mind what to do. The body will always give up. It is always tired morning, noon, and night. But the body is never tired if the mind is not tired. When you were younger the mind could make you dance all night, and the body was never tired...You've always got to make the mind take over and keep going."

That day, I did feel I had come out of the boyhood and in a way ready to take up the challenges in life. At least I could sense, I can take it up when given any situation.

One of my favorite athletes, Emile Zapotek once quoted –
"It's at the borders of pain and suffering that the men are separated from the boys."

After the event, I did feed my stomach with loads of Biryani as promised.

I didn't feel tired. My feet were aching a bit while walking but it was manageable. The person to meet - Chiropodist would have been the ideal person at that moment.

We visited Secundrabad, Sandhya was born here. She wanted to see her old house, she did manage to find and did take a snap.

Later to Snow world, and then to Karachi Bakery (famous cashew biscuits are exported from this place).

Overall the trip was rejuvenating with cousins around. To top it, finishing the half marathon would be the highlight of my trip.

As far as my special friend was concerned- I did get a good luck call two days prior to the event. Trust me, that call did help somewhere during half-marathon.

And I did it for myself, my mom and to my special friend.

"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends". This surely dedicated to the silence of my Special Friend.

Life is all about Timing- 'Waugh kya baat hai'

People realize pretty early, some don’t. That’s the beauty, its all timing.
I heard somewhere “Well arranged time is the surest mark of a well arranged mind”.

When we say, “I don’t have time for this, that etc”, what does it imply?
Are we not arranging things properly, or, we know the right things to be done.
By the time we figure out what we really want, it’s too late.

They say “If youth only knows and age only could”.

This is just an aspect of our life. important one.

As a kid, I did things which used to cause harm to my friends. Very temperamental, just did what I wanted without even thinking the consequences of my actions. Dennis the Menace was appropriately my other name with respect to pranks I used to play on others.

I had broken spectacles of a guy called Shivkumar, 6 times within two months till his mother came and begged me. This was sometime in 1993.

I couldn’t control my temper while I was playing because I always played to win and it reached a stage wherein I started believing; only I could make my team win. I did play brilliantly and I guess my mind went crazy seeing the way I used to play.

This was how I, till the age of 14.

In the past, I always felt I was bigger than the team and to my credit; I used to play pretty well. One day I did see my friends feeling the heat when I yelled at a guy who got me run out. I was furious and I thought the match would be lost because of me getting out.

We did lose and I couldn’t accept defeat that easy on that day. I did play with a lot of new guys (younger than me), gave them chance (in the sense to bat first and bowling especially) but I never liked them getting better than me. I mostly competed with guys elder to me and I always wanted to be better than them. Never felt intimidated in presence of many people who were elder to me.

If indeed a player was better than me, I never used to like that guy be in the same team as mine. I used to work on my bowling so that I could get him out or field like Jonty Rhodes to take a catch or create run out opportunities. I made sure; he didn’t get better than me.

I did all this sportingly never used unfair means of getting them out.

This was how I improved my game, but the attitude of me having to carry the entire burden didn’t go. Partly this was also the result of my friends putting my name in a big way whenever I used to play. The thrill they used to get when they got my wicket, all this made me feel self-centered.

I always wanted to be known as the best player among all the guys who played and I did make a special effort to raise the benchmark every time in which ever way possible.

Sometime in late 99, early 2000, I didn’t enjoy this tag and I was not playing that well. I mean I had very high standards. Even though I did score more than anyone, I wasn’t doing the way I did all six years previously.

My bowling was getting better and my fielding was never a problem. Batting wise, I stopped being ruthless (still used to score fast, but less compared to previous years).

I felt, there were no challenges left. I didn’t have to prove anyone as to how well I batted. People knew. Still, there were discordant feelings inside me. I was15 and it was too early to stop playing cricket.

But I had to get over it fast. Some new guys were coming and they were good. Soon we had a bunch of guys who were pretty talented. Maybe I didn’t like this fact and trying to prove them, I was losing my touch.

When I saw others, I felt, “How I can fit in the team now? Clearly no one is gonna drop me. But I didn’t like the present role, I need a change”.

Well, people whom I thought are average cricketers and the ones who played under the shadows of me and other guys needed a boost somewhere. Timing is the key for every cricketer.

In a way, my attitude of yesteryears would have ruined their self-confidence, if I would have continued playing in the same way.

I decided and threw a challenge on myself. To start with, I opted to bat second last instead of my favorite and usual opening spot. I wanted to see, how good others are and my sole purpose was to make sure we won in the end. Clearly, now I started enjoying the victories even though I didn’t bat.

I was enjoying my bowling and I was dying to bowl every time we played. This didn’t affect my batting, but it took responsibility of my shoulders in terms of hitting the winning runs all the time.
Slowly I could see youngsters enjoying the game since they were getting involved lots.

Later, I stopped bowling and gave youngsters a chance to bowl. I didn’t bowl but used to bat. Even if they conceded runs, I wanted to make sure we won and made sure they faced the challenge from the opposition.
Slowly, I batted down the order and bowled whenever I felt it was necessary to bowl. I was enjoying my fielding and the fun I used to get taking catches and stopping the boundaries were just exciting. Clearly I was thriving on the factor of me being the leader.
In a span of one year, The ‘I’ factor was slowly getting replaced by ‘We’ and I started enjoying this role of a senior player. My temper level in terms of yelling and giving back to bowlers abated, however the passion and aggression to win every match was very much there. Clearly I was more a patient man and more importantly understood the word ‘contentment’. I also understood the fact, “We win as a team, lose as a team”. It is wrong to blame individuals for one’s failure.

My last three years i.e. till 2003, were great in terms of personal growth, the way I was growing intellectually with cricket as the back drop.

It didn’t matter or affect me when we lost a game or two as long as we gave our best, I made sure I gave my best and could see everyone do their best.

In 2003, I felt, it was high time, I quit playing serious cricket. Somehow I didn’t want to involve playing regularly. It was a tough decision but a good one considering the trend and the changes that occurred.

Sadly, cricket was never the same, and I wouldn’t say because of me it stopped, but I am just proud of the fact that, I pushed myself to greater heights and along my way I saw others pushing hard as well. This was the sheer fun of galli cricket, intersecting roads, huge plain lands, it was just fun.

Whenever I walk past these roads which are next to my place, I get reminded of all those moments which shaped my life to become a better human being than a cricketer I could have been at the highest level.

I never played serious cricket in terms of school or anything, I did play some serious atrocious games with guys who gave everything, so that it was at times more than just fun.

It was a mission. All I can say, in retrospect, it was Mission Well Accomplished.
I want to thank all my friends who played a role in developing me into a good individual. Because of the challenges provided by them, I could raise myself every time and 90% I did succeed.

The change in attitude was mainly inspired by Steve Waugh. He became the Captain of the Australian Team in 1998, which inspired me to become a leader and make others push hard and personally set challenges.
Like him, I was there only when situations demanded me to be there; otherwise I was pretty happy seeing my other friends finishing the job.
It was also this time, we started playing some ruthless cricket and at the end of it, we had a great laugh at each other. It was a journey which I enjoyed without bothering about the destination.

My cricket life started trying to be a Sachin, which I did brilliantly by being the one man army and to end it like a leader of the caliber of Steve Waugh.
In the end, more than cricket, I enjoyed the other aspects of seeing others happy, involving others and more importantly compete as a team. Incidentally, Steve is my mom’s favourite crickter and she also used to accompany me to various cricket skill camps early in my life.

For me, 6^th of January, 2004 at 1.15pm local Indian time, it was a moment, which will remain with me forever.

Steve Waugh: caught Sachin Tendulkar bowled Kumble - 80
He got out off his trademark slog sweep and fittingly Sachin took the catch. It was at his home ground SCG, Sydney. It was an emotional moment for me as well, since I had stopped playing few months back.

Last year, I did enjoy reading his Book: “Out of my Comfort Zone”, which is what I always went through and which is also the inspiration for my Blog’s title.

To end I get reminded of the following line I thought once as a kid.

“Many People think life is a game; I thought cricket was a game”

Some more things later, because there are still many facets left.

Special Mention:

Sridhar (first guy with whom I played on those roads in 1991), Anirudh (Bunty), Anupam (Dumpy), Praveen, Bharath, Ravi, Ajay, Vijay, Pavan, Anjeneya, Abhishek, Jaggu, Umapathy, Thejaswi Udupa, Abhilash, Monty, Niku, Basava ( the best I ever played with), Mallesh, Mote, Govinda (Kambli), Jagan, Raaghu, Pradeep, Sudhindra, Bipin( 4 years younger to me, highly talented), Kiran Sr, Kiran Jr, Nandu, Venugopal, Praveen, Renuka, Pavan, Santosh, Ramnath, Chetan, Nahush, Chaitanya, Kumaraswamy, Nikhil, Goutham, Preetham, Truthik, Anoop, Rakhshit, Rajat, Saravanan, Sharath, Allen, Elvin, Manjunath, Manu, Sanjay, Arun, Mayur and others.

But most important is Anianna, who played a lot of cricket and as a kid I watched every game he and his friends played.

This is also to mention a man by name Mr. JayaPrakash. The most complete cricketer I ever saw. He gave me the first break into serious cricket as a substitute in a tournament. I still remember the way he used to hit sixes one handed. Sadly he passed away in 1994, October.

P.S: Serious cricket: Any game played with seriousness involving people comparable to an international match. It was un-official nevertheless.

A LIfe Less Ordinary!!! More Extraordinary

Hi…..

Where do I start this?
Sometimes I feel why I should hit against a wall.

Am I sane to do it? It's tough to get answers to such questions. Then
I do realize by introspection that, it's not wall, she is a human
being and whom I regard forever as a good friend to have met (even if
it was only once).

Hence comparing you with the wall is the silliest analogy I can ever think of.

Then what it is?

All these days I just hoped you end up having hassle free life. And
hope is all I can give you at this moment.

I do believe, the most pristine relationship in this world is the
relationship between a mother and her children. Innocence is at its
peak when they start developing relationship very early in their
lives. The sad part is, it keeps deteriorating slowly and differences
do creep in eventually. This is a fact.

After 23 years (Not yet, one more month to go), Even I feel the pinch
when I try to manipulate things with my mother. It is tough to be
frank at all times. Why?

I am aware of things than previously and as time goes it becomes
eventually tough on my part to maintain or get back to that level of
innocence I once had as a child.

The more I think about this aspect, I feel, I am allowing the outer
elements to control and in turn hamper the innocence. This is no
theory and it's completely pragmatic in every which way we would like
to think.

Now this explains the theory "Change is the only constant thing". So
true, if changes can occur to a pristine relationship of that of a
mother and her children, then why do we point fingers at other
relationships and feel bad about it when it didn't work.

By being frank at critical situations one can still retain the
innocence, because changes can occur for better too.

All it takes is choice and effort to back the choice.

With this enlightenment, I am trying to deal with trivial issues with
a bigger picture in mind.

No wonder, a good movie looks better on a big screen than on a small screen.

If we are making a movie of our lives, I completely agree with
individuals to choose their own cast. Stories, screenplays, editing,
suspense, climax, thriller, comedy etc it's all up to us to direct our
thoughts to make a life time movie.

Generally, many movies include "cameos". He gets appreciated only when
he completes the job which a main character is inhibited to do.

It is our wish to extend the cameo's role. But extension of cameo's
role must not affect the movie.

At the same time, one cannot ignore the importance of him. So we
choose him either to please the public so that he could help us to
make our movie a little better than what it is.

Or, we want him because we are convinced that he is there to play an
important role.

This convincing act must be one's own.

I do remember the lines which you told me "There is a reason as to why
we both met".

I don't know whether you know the reason, but I certainly do. All I
need is, time from your kitty bag to tell what changes I have made in
my life and the new career path I am looking at. I really don't know
whether I would get some time from you, but you see,
one needs to be optimistic and I am confident one day I will get that
"time" from you even if you try hard not to give. Hehehe

Like they say "Good things will always come to an end, if they aren't
good, then it's not the end yet".

I hope you got all the answers and you've come to understand that
people and things are always going to change and you can't stop them
now.

I know for the fact, I cannot help or be there for all your problems.
And trust me no one will be there also for all the problems. Time is
the only comforter one can get.
Try and you will get some time from others, but only if you try. Trust
me, not every one is selfish and there are people who will be willing
to help without any motive only if you give them a chance.

In the end, we are all separate; our stories, no matter how similar,
come to a fork and diverge. We are drawn to each other because of our
similarities, but it is our differences we must learn to respect.

This is the Quote of my life: "No one except me can spoil my life;
it's me and my choices which eventually would change my life"




Let me try….. An Enrique song for you……..

I have modified this for you….

Every day here you came for chatting (on g-talk)
and held your fingers; hence we don't do much talking via chatting
when I asked "How are you"?
You say you're happy and you're doin' fine
Well go ahead, baby, I got plenty of time
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie

Well for a while I've been watching you unsteady
Ain't gonna move from the friendship 'til you're good and ready
You show up and then you shy away
But I know preeti( pretty) soon you'll be walkin' this way
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie

Baby don't you know I do care
Don't you know that I've been there( not always though)
Well if something in the air feels a little unkind
Don't worry darling, it'll slip your mind

I know you think you'd never be my friend
Well that's okay, baby, I don't mind your trend
the photo shy smile of yours( on orkut) is sweet, that's a fact
Go ahead, I don't mind the act ( of you not being in touch)

Here you come all planned up for a date to meet
Well one more step and it'll be too late to treat
Adversity might make you feely lonely here and there
I am sure that you're so sure I'll be standing there
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie
Sad eyes never lie